benediction poem-----"best of final wishes"

These last years are now coming to a final

Finish. Times of love, hatred, laughter and

Despair. People that once hated each other

Now are becoming closer than they had been.

People who were friends and loved on another

are now closer and ore friendly than ever

before. I wish of all of you, of all of this, of

all of what has been of all of these last four

years for you to never forget this time right

now for when we were all at our closest with

one another and for you all to fallow your

craziest of dreams and never not fallow your

heart, for the time you don’t you will be at

your worst. So do what you want to do and

don’t let anyone or anything stand in your way

for any reason. And for then you will always

be at your happiest and that is my deepest wish

to all of you.

distrustful you

RPK,



There you go again….
Doing the same shit you once did
That I thought we’d gotten rid of.

Apparently when you said it wasn’t going
To happen again you lied to me once more.
You no I hate when you lie but yet that doesn’t
Stop you I catch you all the time
You say you’re a jealous person and that your not
Going to let that get in the way and make it hard on us
You say that it’s no big deal
And yet it is to both of us, it hurts you because no
Matter how much you say you love me you still don’t
Trust me. You still get your little thoughts in your head
And let them get out of hand.
I don’t get it and I don’t know what to do anymore.

I don’t know why but you think I am cheating on you
with my friend Ryan, but that’s not all. You think it about
Many people and not just guys.
Yeah I’ll give it to you, you know I aint straight
You know I am bi. But still I am a trustful and trusting
Person I am not one to cheat on someone and yet you
Think I am or am going to.
It hurts cant you see.

You say you know you say you get it, but yet I can see
That you don’t know I can tell when you lie to me I can
See that you don’t get it.
I don’t understand why you try and lie to me or why you
Are sooo jealous. Granted I like jealousy I really do
I feel that depending on how jealous the one you are
with is over other people show s how much more
they are in to you and how much more they like you
but yet you are sooo jealous it gets in the way. And it hurts
just that much more. I don’t know how much moe of this I
can take I don’t think I am even the girl you fell in love with
anymore it hurt that much and for some reason you don’t see it.
And just at that moment my phone rings.
Its my mom, of course, whenever I am in the middle
of something important it never ceases to fail.
Hello,
Hello can I help you, I am kinda busy,
Yeah I need your help out here,
With what?,
You have to help with the cats,
Really? Can I wait I am kinda the middle of something and
Its needed and important?
I guess, hurry up I need you out here,
Fine, and at that second I hang up

Ok where was I, o yes, you don’t get how much this hurts me
I know it hurts you too, you end up crying almost every night
About us, and honestly I did too
But now, I cant, not no more, the tears are done, I want to cry
It hurts that bad but now….
They wont, they cant come out and it bothers me
I’m scared on what this means and I don’t want to find out
But I must, I want to know, I need to know

And yet I must know sooo bad and yet it just makes me more
Nervous about the answer

Because I do love you
I love who you are
I love what your about
Sadly not necessarily
What your about but, I
Do love you with all my heart
But I must know what this
Means… What all of this means.

If it just means we’re having just a rough time or if
This is us coming to an end.
Sadly if this is the truth you mustn’t forget that I do love you
That I will still do anything for you and that you are still and
Always be my life and my world.
And that you are my friend, my best friend
And I don’t want to loose you ever.
But I need to know what all of this means.
Maybe…..just maybe this can be settled
But until then, until we figure this out,
I think we need break
Well keep in thouch,
With all love in the world,
Kirstie

Always and forever
Forever and eternity

Abusive Electrician

My boyfriend and father of two
Who I have been scare fully with
for twenty years
who’s an electrician for a
company in Lansing Michigan

name Roy
age 39
about him short, blonde, beer gut,
lazy slacker, procrastinator, and abuser

because of his job he is rarely home
gone for 2-4 weeks and home for 2 day
used to be when he was home he would
abuse me emotionally and physically
has a tendency to quiet his job when I
get a second because we need more
money for bills
laying on his ass all day drinking and watching tv
don’t do anything but abuse me.

Finally the abuse stops when our son was born
But wait now its targeted on him
Owr one and only son
Now 16 and still being abused
Sadly I am too scared to do anything about it
Scared that it will be put back on me
So I acted like it never happened
Sadly it did

You went back out to lansing
Because your two days were up
So its back out to work you go
You leave the abuse stops
and things die back down to normal

you got called out to a home to do
some electric in a bathroom
little did you no this would be your last call
you had went to the bathroom
didnt think anything of it
but there were exposed wires just
above the sink and you go to wash your hands
the water splashes up and gets them wet
you go to grab the wires
to stop the water from getting to them
your hands are still wet
your forgot the dry them
you get electrocuted badly
now your lying there on the floor dying

the lady who’s house you were working for
heard a bunch of ruckus and barged in
saw you lying on the floor slowly dying
called the ambulance
they didn’t get there in time
and you died their on the bathroom floor
working at some lady’s house
know longer to be abusive to me or your son
know longer to be lazy and say you got fired
from your job when you quite because I
got another one
know longer do i….scratch that……do we
have to put up with anymore of you…..

now every time I go in to the bathroom
and turn on the faucet I think of you
and how happy it makes me that YOU….
Are out of our lives and that YOU…..
Cant hurt us no more
So I say good day to you and goodbye forever

summer poem

when i was 13
there was a summer
a summer to remember
oh so well
a summer hwere me
and my family traveled
traveled all summer long
my dad drove from
place to place
we started at the
algonac state park
my mom and me set up
and tore down camps
we fallowed my grampa
from place to place
fallowing my uncles carnival
all over michigan
they go all over the country
we were having fun, working,
riding rides, and eatting
eatting things like cotton
candy elephant ears and had
lemon ade and such
it was a blast

life right now

My life right now, just down right sucks. i have been kicked out of my moms house, cant stay at my dads full time because he comlpains if i stay there too long. i cant stay at freinds houses because none of them can put me up till i graduate, even 8 weeks. my mom and i are still constantly fighting, my dad and i are better than normal and we are acctually getting along. my sister , tabitha, and i can tolerate each other. i dont get to see any of my step family, like my sisters kelli, angie and dana, of my borthers stephen or michael. michael is my step brother on my moms side who lives in nwe york right now working for some high end magaizine like vogue or something, and the other 4 are on my dads side, and stephen lives in kallamazoo, angie and kelli live in maryland, and dana is based in hawaii for now before she gets shipped out with the navy again. i am getting ready to go camping for spring break with my fiancee and it is sooo stressful because, i was ganna also go with my freinds aaron and renee but we ran into some trouble with that so we cant do that now. so me and him were still ganna go. then we asked owr friend chris to go for a few days, so now hes going for the first two and leaving then its ganna be me and my roy for the last two. i am paying for the camping place. roy is paying for some of the food, his mom has volentered to pitch in and help with the food and then chris is going to pitch in some so he can stay like two nights and the car pass for him to drive.
i am glad i get to spend a week with my boyfreind like all to my self and i am glad i get to see my freind too, but ill be happier when he leaves, no offense to him. and he knows we are excited about this and getting alone time.

excited and stressed/cant wait

regretment

Words shouted across rooms
Things shuttered in fear
Wished some words hadn’t been said
Rather be at peace with family
Not at war
Looking around everyone in agreeance
Wishing this hadn’t happened
You wanting me out
You know not to say
Because for you say I will leave
Without a second thought
So what do you do
Just what you know you’ll regret
More ugly words spoken
More things in regret
But it’s too late now
I’m out like you wanted
Trying to find someone who cares
To find somewhere to stay
So goodbye for good
You wanted me out
You got your wish whether
You really wanted it or not
You know you shouldn’t have said
You know you did wrong
I’m not coming back to you
Not now
Not ever

object poem

all white a plush
fuzzy and cute
with your nose all black
and your roses all red
gotten just a few short days
after valentines day
ment as a gift
just for something to do
but really means the
world to me
and fills the
void in my life when
you are gone
and out of my
dreadfully long day