RPK,
There you go again….
Doing the same shit you once did
That I thought we’d gotten rid of.
Apparently when you said it wasn’t going
To happen again you lied to me once more.
You no I hate when you lie but yet that doesn’t
Stop you I catch you all the time
You say you’re a jealous person and that your not
Going to let that get in the way and make it hard on us
You say that it’s no big deal
And yet it is to both of us, it hurts you because no
Matter how much you say you love me you still don’t
Trust me. You still get your little thoughts in your head
And let them get out of hand.
I don’t get it and I don’t know what to do anymore.
I don’t know why but you think I am cheating on you
with my friend Ryan, but that’s not all. You think it about
Many people and not just guys.
Yeah I’ll give it to you, you know I aint straight
You know I am bi. But still I am a trustful and trusting
Person I am not one to cheat on someone and yet you
Think I am or am going to.
It hurts cant you see.
You say you know you say you get it, but yet I can see
That you don’t know I can tell when you lie to me I can
See that you don’t get it.
I don’t understand why you try and lie to me or why you
Are sooo jealous. Granted I like jealousy I really do
I feel that depending on how jealous the one you are
with is over other people show s how much more
they are in to you and how much more they like you
but yet you are sooo jealous it gets in the way. And it hurts
just that much more. I don’t know how much moe of this I
can take I don’t think I am even the girl you fell in love with
anymore it hurt that much and for some reason you don’t see it.
And just at that moment my phone rings.
Its my mom, of course, whenever I am in the middle
of something important it never ceases to fail.
Hello,
Hello can I help you, I am kinda busy,
Yeah I need your help out here,
With what?,
You have to help with the cats,
Really? Can I wait I am kinda the middle of something and
Its needed and important?
I guess, hurry up I need you out here,
Fine, and at that second I hang up
Ok where was I, o yes, you don’t get how much this hurts me
I know it hurts you too, you end up crying almost every night
About us, and honestly I did too
But now, I cant, not no more, the tears are done, I want to cry
It hurts that bad but now….
They wont, they cant come out and it bothers me
I’m scared on what this means and I don’t want to find out
But I must, I want to know, I need to know
And yet I must know sooo bad and yet it just makes me more
Nervous about the answer
Because I do love you
I love who you are
I love what your about
Sadly not necessarily
What your about but, I
Do love you with all my heart
But I must know what this
Means… What all of this means.
If it just means we’re having just a rough time or if
This is us coming to an end.
Sadly if this is the truth you mustn’t forget that I do love you
That I will still do anything for you and that you are still and
Always be my life and my world.
And that you are my friend, my best friend
And I don’t want to loose you ever.
But I need to know what all of this means.
Maybe…..just maybe this can be settled
But until then, until we figure this out,
I think we need break
Well keep in thouch,
With all love in the world,
Kirstie
Always and forever
Forever and eternity
