summer poem

when i was 13
there was a summer
a summer to remember
oh so well
a summer hwere me
and my family traveled
traveled all summer long
my dad drove from
place to place
we started at the
algonac state park
my mom and me set up
and tore down camps
we fallowed my grampa
from place to place
fallowing my uncles carnival
all over michigan
they go all over the country
we were having fun, working,
riding rides, and eatting
eatting things like cotton
candy elephant ears and had
lemon ade and such
it was a blast

life right now

My life right now, just down right sucks. i have been kicked out of my moms house, cant stay at my dads full time because he comlpains if i stay there too long. i cant stay at freinds houses because none of them can put me up till i graduate, even 8 weeks. my mom and i are still constantly fighting, my dad and i are better than normal and we are acctually getting along. my sister , tabitha, and i can tolerate each other. i dont get to see any of my step family, like my sisters kelli, angie and dana, of my borthers stephen or michael. michael is my step brother on my moms side who lives in nwe york right now working for some high end magaizine like vogue or something, and the other 4 are on my dads side, and stephen lives in kallamazoo, angie and kelli live in maryland, and dana is based in hawaii for now before she gets shipped out with the navy again. i am getting ready to go camping for spring break with my fiancee and it is sooo stressful because, i was ganna also go with my freinds aaron and renee but we ran into some trouble with that so we cant do that now. so me and him were still ganna go. then we asked owr friend chris to go for a few days, so now hes going for the first two and leaving then its ganna be me and my roy for the last two. i am paying for the camping place. roy is paying for some of the food, his mom has volentered to pitch in and help with the food and then chris is going to pitch in some so he can stay like two nights and the car pass for him to drive.
i am glad i get to spend a week with my boyfreind like all to my self and i am glad i get to see my freind too, but ill be happier when he leaves, no offense to him. and he knows we are excited about this and getting alone time.

excited and stressed/cant wait

regretment

Words shouted across rooms
Things shuttered in fear
Wished some words hadn’t been said
Rather be at peace with family
Not at war
Looking around everyone in agreeance
Wishing this hadn’t happened
You wanting me out
You know not to say
Because for you say I will leave
Without a second thought
So what do you do
Just what you know you’ll regret
More ugly words spoken
More things in regret
But it’s too late now
I’m out like you wanted
Trying to find someone who cares
To find somewhere to stay
So goodbye for good
You wanted me out
You got your wish whether
You really wanted it or not
You know you shouldn’t have said
You know you did wrong
I’m not coming back to you
Not now
Not ever

object poem

all white a plush
fuzzy and cute
with your nose all black
and your roses all red
gotten just a few short days
after valentines day
ment as a gift
just for something to do
but really means the
world to me
and fills the
void in my life when
you are gone
and out of my
dreadfully long day

confessions poem

mother dearest of mine,



i admit i haven't been the best
daughter in the world.
and i may have stayed out
passed curfew
or have snuck out
and wasn't caught
but you never said a word
just sat there in silence
always ignoring the fact that
i may have needed your help
for anything.


you sit there and yell at me
for stupid things that know one
really cares about,
you don't let me out of the house
because i have to take care
of my sister and clean the house
and even cook the meals
you don't let me have a life
when i am at your house.
but at least i clean up after my self
unlike my sister, who you do
nothing about and love sooo much.

i thought my dad was bad
since me and him did not
get alone,
we couldn't even sit
in the same room for more than
an hour together without fighting.
but at this point i like my father more.

i feel i can open up to him,
we have a bond, and tell
each other anything, know matter how
had or scary it may be at first
but right now he has my back
more than you do.
and he sticks his neck out
on the line to do things for me
and to make them right.
especially if he feels he did
something wrong
and your the one that told me
i could go to you for anything
no matter what it was
yup i see that now
anything right?
you have a great way
of showing that one

what do you do really do?
nothing, not really,
you sit there
and yell at me,
threaten to hit me,
kick me out and when i have
know where to go and no job.
yup i cannot honestly say i love you too....
what mother kicks there daughter out
and they not have somewhere to go
or care what happens to them?

i can tell you who dont
and that would be my mom
but at least i have a few that do
my dad, fiancee Roy
and friends Chris Katherine
Renee Emilee Brittany and Lexy.

so i guess this is goodbye mother dearest.....

list poem

if by chance you would leave or cheat on me, Roy, i would....
take your phone and break it in half
take your sim card and demolish it in the garbage disposal,
i would take your Toshiba laptop and smash it with an axe,
i would take every CD and break them all in half,
then i would go to your books
and rip out every page in them out,
i would take your dirt bike and cut the breaks and gas line,
take your pocket rocket and toss it in the river,
take all of your Tripp's and burn them in the fire pit out back,
take all of your favorite foods like steak and gum
and add them to the fire and make you watch,
and all your favorite drinks like monster and orange juice
would go down the drain,
i would leave you all of your jeans and preppy like clothes,
and make you wear bright colors instead
since i know you hate preppy like things,
i would nail all of your windows and doors shut
so you can not go out side anymore,

i would take your wii and xbox 360 which you love so dearly

and drown them in your pool which you will never be able to use again,
i would break the thermostat
so you cannot make it hotter or colder
and i will set it at a neutral temperature, about 70 degrees
since i know you hate not being at an extreme in temperatures,
i will organize the house and superglue everything in its place
so you cant then mess it up, and there be no clutter,
i will get you a at home teacher so you have to go to school everyday
and cant get away from them or the teachings, since you hate school,
i will never tell you i love you or hug and kiss you again
everyone knows how upset you get when i do not do those,
i will play rap all day in the house that you can never leave
so no more techno rock or metal,
and you will know longer be allowed to smoke
another cigarette or cigar a day in your life.....

are you sure you still want to try and leave or cheat on me?

my life in the last few days

My life has been pretty hectic for the last few days.I refuse to go home for long, unless its to sleep.I wake up, go to school, then after school i go to my fiancees house until late that evening and go home.Me and my family, mom and dad, don't get along for very long. We are always at each others throats and yelling and everything else. I get along with this really great guy. Who happens to be my fiancee. and I love him to death.Although, yesterday was way out there......My fiancees mom called him and since his grades were slipping really badly and only passed one class he was going to be grounded.He ended u p yelling at his mom, and getting all pissed off at his dad, because for once his dad stepped in on the parenting and him and his dad don't get along. So hes sitting there yelling at his mom about Finally stepping up to the plate and grounding him for his grades instead of waiting so long and about how much he hates his dad and everything like that. I'm trying to calm him down so hes not yelling anymore.He still hadn't calmed down, at this point he had gotten worse and thows the phone across the van Roy, my fiancee, Justin and I are in. The phone comes apart and his mom is still trying to call his cell phone.I got him to calm down after another five minutes and then take my phone and call his mom back, since he cant use his since he cant find it in pieces in the back of the van.Me and his mom get along really well and she knows that his temper hasn't been so bad since me and him have started dating and realizes that I had been watching it lately and not letting it get out of hand.But after he had calmed down he had realized what he had done and felt really bad. You see he had never wanted me to see that side of him and he kept apologizing to me. i kept trying to tell hims its not the first time i had seen him like that. Which also happened to make him feel even worse, and ask how many times i had seen this. I'd told him 3, and he had about lost it.But I love him and am willing to put up with this and work with him on it.....